even know anymore…
and im not going to be sad.
i just wish i knew…
I really like demi lovato.
she actually has some decent songs.
and a really good voice
and the song she did with we the kings is awesome.
im also a 10 year old on the inside.
so maybe that has something to do with it..
i think ill start trying to be happy.
ive said that many times but i mean it this time.
i feel like im ready to go out there and take chances.
ready to go out there and get what i want.
ready to live up to my new years resolution.
im almost over this sickness ive had since the year started,
so now its time for me to go out and live.
im really excited and really scared for what this year has for me.
but im ready to take it.
I’ve never had a valentine.
i haven’t either… hoping i can fix that this year…
guys have a tendency to say too much.
these conversations are hilarious.
people are so dumb.
i love my lil sis…
postsecrets all day…
makes me wish i was able to say everything i want.
because i cant say what i want without it being so obvious.
life is difficult sometimes.
ive been just having a bad past few days.
i feel like im losing alot of people/ things from my life.
maybe its because ive been sick for 3 weeks and haven’t seen anyone or done anything.
but its making me worry. and getting me scared… :/
i push people away because im terrified to get too close to someone and lose them.
ive done this with almost everyone ive ever became friends with.
its why i dont keep friends for long
and why my best friends are the ones who ive known since i was really young.
my jealousy problem…
its because EVERY single guy i ever liked/ had a thing with left me for one of my good friends.
and let me tell you. IT SUCKS.
so ive lost pretty much all trust in guys.
and trust in most of my friends too. save maybe 3 people.
it helps when you know why you are how you are. it just hard trying to fix it…